This is a feeling that is weighing heavily on me. I know we will all have failures in our lives, I know we all have starry-eyed dreams that won't come true. A young man (19 years old, wow) from my ward gave a really excellent talk on Sunday about the long-term consequences of the choices we made years ago, and the choices we make now. I have to face that certain things are set, that the actions have taken place and will not be un-done. Don't worry, it's not about Dan and me, except in the sense that he is my other half.
I am struggling with choices right now. I have some painful ones to make. I've been able to put off a lot of them because I was so busy with school. But that's over and now I have mental spare time. Some decisions are easy to make, because my inaction makes the decision for me - I make excuses for why I can't, and thus I effectively choose not to do the thing I don't want to do. Or the thing that I want to do, but am too afraid of doing. Or I can't find a means to make it happen. Or, as is one of the cases right now, I have to be patient and wait for the right time.
I'm being vague. I have to be. We're having my Mom and some friends over Friday night, and I'm glad. Boy, do I need friends right now.